Hardest part…

The hardest part in healing is missing the narcissist after leaving. I left several times but missing them was the hardest part which made me fall for their hoover and manipulation one too many times.
I’ve never been popular, social, or sought after… I’ve always been a loner.
I miss that my nex (narcissist ex) gave me constant attention, that we were always together. The first couple of months, it really felt like he was my best friend.

I hate that they pretend to love you, like they know how to act like a great person until they decide to stop. They blame us and its hard to understand.
I guess I need supply too but I don’t want to just use people like they do. I want to be valued and truly loved, I want to be able to trust my partner.
I always told my nex that he should be an actor. He struggles financially and is in major debt… I don’t know why he just didn’t try it. He could switch moods in a second, it was actually scary.

Unveiling a Troubling Pattern: The Impact of Disrespect towards Mothers

In light of recent developments surrounding Cassie’s settlement of domestic violence with Diddy, a concerning pattern has come to the forefront. A video on YouTube featuring Diddy’s former employee, Gene Deal, has resurfaced, raising questions about the dynamics within Diddy’s relationships.

Gene Deal, who had previously voiced concerns about Diddy’s behavior, is speaking out once again. During his time working with Diddy, he witnessed and heard stories about the abuse suffered by Diddy’s then-girlfriend, Kim Porter (deceased in 2018). Gene suggests that Cassie was likely treated the same.

The gravity of this revelation cannot be overstated – it highlights a distressing cycle of abuse. Gene’s warning is clear: no partner is immune, regardless of beauty, status, age, talent. The picturesque facade can disguise a darker truth, and individuals may find themselves becoming the next victim of abuse.

An additional insight from Gene is equally poignant: he observed Diddy disrespecting his own mother. Gene, choosing to stand up for his own morals, defended Diddy’s mother. His advice to all women is a clear fact: “If a man disrespects his mother, you’re just like an ice cube, you ain’t got a chance in hell.” This is a stark reality that should not be ignored.

Reflecting on this, I’m reminded of a personal experience with an abusive ex who routinely belittled his mother, claiming she was simple-minded and not intelligent. His exclusive communication with his father signaled a broader lack of respect for women. I observed this early in our relationship and didn’t think twice that he would be verbally abusive months later because he seemed like a kind, and gentle guy. This is a whole other topic I will be posting about later but he did end up abusing me, and it got worse the longer I stayed…

This serves as a crucial warning sign. If you witness or experience such behavior while getting to know someone, it’s imperative to address it head-on. Individuals who disrespect their mothers may carry a pattern of abuse, and turning a blind eye may lead to further harm. Please pay attention – shutting down such behavior is an act of self-preservation, as individuals with a history of disrespect may not change, and the cycle of abuse could persist.
Video interview of Gene Deal: Diddy Treated Cassie and Kim The Same

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