The hardest part in healing is missing the narcissist after leaving. I left several times but missing them was the hardest part which made me fall for their hoover and manipulation one too many times.
I’ve never been popular, social, or sought after… I’ve always been a loner.
I miss that my nex (narcissist ex) gave me constant attention, that we were always together. The first couple of months, it really felt like he was my best friend.
I hate that they pretend to love you, like they know how to act like a great person until they decide to stop. They blame us and its hard to understand.
I guess I need supply too but I don’t want to just use people like they do. I want to be valued and truly loved, I want to be able to trust my partner.
I always told my nex that he should be an actor. He struggles financially and is in major debt… I don’t know why he just didn’t try it. He could switch moods in a second, it was actually scary.